My first sketches

"When life is hard 

do it harder, because it will make you feel alive..."

In my last post I told you about my little life story what I'm having at Cluj. A lot of my friends asking about me, but to be honest I don't really have time so I decided to write about it. 

My last interview was a nightmare. I promised to my self, I wont be a sewer ever again. When I entered to the factory and I saw the machine line up and everybody was sitting and sewing, I remember that feeling and frustration what I had last year. The good thing about this factory wast that everybody had to do a garment from the start... There was no fazes of sewing, just full dresses. I would learn a lot  from there and I felt comfortable about the idea. When the master gave me a coat to sew from the start, I was smiling because I did the same model for one of my models before Christmas. She started asking me about my work experience and study. When I told her about my six years of university she got weird with me, and when I told her about the engineering part she freaked out. After three hour I was "kicked out". I didn't understand why. I felt like a fool about the situation and I called my brother and he was so sweet. He told me: "when you get up on a full bus everybody will look ugly at you, but if you wait 2 stations those people will get off the buss and you will stand there" ...I realized no matter how hard I try to be friends whit people who are working in production at a factory I always will be an outsider especially if I have more school then the master.

When I got "home" on that day I decided to go home where I came from but my roommate helped me out and he got me a job offer as a designer. I had to do 5 sketches, 1 technical paper and 1 pattern calculation from one of my design.  

To be honest I don't do sketches, these are my third once...Before I started designing I got this video which is really helpful and I wanted to share with you...

These are the occasional dresses design:

Ready to wear garment design:

I hope you like it. I'm open to any opinion :)

Up's and down's

"if you want to be the best you have to beat the best..."

Life is harder than I thought. Today I quit my job because I wasn't good enough. I needed to do 2 dresses at least in 8 hour.I now I'm good at sewing but not that good. I never worked for a designer before but this kind of job is really different. You need to be able to do everything, from pattern making to sewing. When I executed my design (from patterns to sewing and finishing) I new what to do, what technic to use, but here I needed to think with the designer head. 

Anyway, I liked the job but it wasn't meant to be. Yesterday I had a talk with my sister about this theme. Designers need to know to sew or not?They need to know about good technology? I now a lot of designers who don't touch a sewing machine and everything what they design is executed by another person. I think that If you are a designer you have to know everything about technology and execution. That's why I want to give up 2-3 years of my life(to learn every technic possible) . My sister had a good point of view when she told me: "Those designers who don't sew and they don't know shit about technology, they wont survive on the market. Executing garments with a good look and after 2 washes you throw it out, it's like trowing your image out." I agreed with her.

If you want to be a good designer on this fulled up market, you have to concentrate on your quality beside the quantity. There are way to many designers on this world and if you want to be the best you have to beat the best. 

Working as a sewer is my  scariest dream(after what happened last year), is the worst job what a woman can have because you have to be precise, good hand work, long concentration, resistant to stress, long working hours and beside that you get almost nothing when it comes about money. 

I looked up for a new job and tomorrow I'm having an interview. I'm curious what I will learn there. 

The new beginning

my road, my destiny...

A new year knocked on the door and it's called 2014. I took time to think about my future and what to do next. Everybody needs a plan. It's human nature to think about life and shit which complicates your life even more and sometimes makes you feel miserable (when you don't achieve it) or proud (when you do) because of it.

Here is the new year so it's time to start a new life. At home I became the most known designer but I'm not comfortable with my achievements because I now I can do more. My design are a little bit simple and sophisticated. When I started designing garments I concentrated on the design and not the quality. People around me complained about my sewing style because the garments were poorly executed. I changed my point of view by reducing the design and I started concentrating on the execution. But after a while my garments became a little bit boring. I feel like it's time to concentrate on design and hand made technics.

After wining at the nationals I felt wowed by my work and I still love the Black Widow collection, but thinking back I feel like I can do better. Living in a little town it's nice if you are a writer or a new upcoming designer but if you get on the top than you have to drag your self further. I new I have to move to a bigger town. It's my life, my road, my destiny and I want to feel every piece of it in my vein.

I decided that this year will be different. I will move town to town after 6-7 months all around the world working as a sewer or a design assistant until I feel like I learned and achieved what I want. It's a hard decision to make and probably I will fail. I don't know. What I do know is that I will try and this blog will be the mirror of my lifestyle and work. I'm not giving up designing or anything. But the truth is what I want to learn, the school never will teach me.

I did my first step! I moved to a bigger town where the expectation are higher and the work is harder. I got a job as a sewer and I will make occasional dresses and handmade technics  which I never made. I'm living with 6 guy's in an apartment(a lot of crazy shit going around). I'm not saying that this is easy but it's fun and I'm really confident with my new decision. God knows what happens next...

Stay tuned and find out more...

"I want to feel free and explore my own idea on my way and see all those inspiration whit my eyes and not an my computers desktop. "

Flashes of memories....2013

"Fashion is the game of rich people..."

This is the last SM post this year... I want to thank for all my crew members, models and friends the opportunity and the patience to work together. We had good and bad moment's, I agree, but look where we all stand. This year was a hard one for SM. We lost members and created new ones. SM brought people together, we created new friendships and I'm really glad to be part of it.

Fashion is the game of rich people... my girlfriend told me once and she was right. When I felt sad cuz the SM was going under, I always remembered all those moments when we worked together and I didn't felt alone...almost every Sunday we had a shooting and we were laughing our ass off .It felt good... I hope that next year will be better, with more collections and more opportunities for everyone!

I want to make a smile on your face so I attached some pictures to remember the Sunday's and the backstage moments. :D

The Black widow collection

 "A woman wants to feel strong and sexy,

 to have a positive, explicit attitude..."

The collection is based on a strong personality of a widowed woman in a modern era. The firs part of the collection was presented as an art nouveau collection. After I was promoted to go to the nationals, I created more looks based on this concept. 

With this collection I wanted to represent a strong women line with no vulgarity, to show the women body as it is. A woman wants to feel strong and sexy, to have a positive, explicit attitude. This collection makes you feel that way.. I left the back naked and the legs open cuted  to give a little sex appeal with limits. Big part of the collection has hardening at the waist to give a beautiful S for the body. 

Mostly strong women's are vulgar and hard so I choose soft textiles to bring a balance between personality and the look. The Black color makes people shallow and nobody likes that so I used chain to avoid this effect. Also the chain makes the look more expensive and glamour's. 

On this photo shoot participated:

Design: MA

Hair Stylist: Markos Ildiko

MUA: Gina Bordas

Models: Adel Berry, Szabo Andrea, Catana Alexandra

Photo: Bandi Andras, Fulop Barni
These photos were taken at the Teleki Castel